1.1.10

What a new year eve.While everyone else was busy counting down or partying last night I was sitting in front of the tv at home.Worst still,feeling dizzy and feverish.Bleh at least there's Facebook,I thought!but what could be worst when the connection was being so crappy and I can't even go online :( Slowly all the new year msgs started coming in one by one and were slowly forwarded.Of all the msgs,I really like the one sent by Hsin Yung!I can feel those words were pure from his heart ;) I was busy asking everyone else to smile last night so that they will be smilling all the way in 2010 :) I'm sick on new year and does that mean that I will be sick for the rest of 2010? :( God loves me.Each time I'm in need of someone He will send somebody to the rescue :) Glad I have Jen Hoe around last night! Though he made me so jealous by telling me he was at his cousin's party when I called him last night but a statement from him forgives him all-"I will drive to Penang if I can drive!" :) You see,sometimes in life 1 good friend beats 100friends.Got what I mean? Happy New Year everyone! :) Get well soon Debbie

Ken Yung & NS!

My last words to Ken Yung before he leaves for NS this Sat
Since I can't sign in Fb at the moment due to some connection problem,I have to say everything here,in case you don't come back anymore.I mean who knows you might fall in love with a Sarawakian and then decides to settle down in Sarawak lol.Nothing is impossible right?lol telling this to you makes me feel like a mum la but I just feel like telling you la
Chubby make sure you pack everything-your toothbrush,shoe,socks,slipper,track bottom,shirts,shorts,soap,toothpaste,comb and your disposable underwears lol.
Remember to bring some medicines along-Panadol,plaster,stomach ache pills,flu medicine,sunblock,mosquitoes repellent and cream.You know your antibody is very low and you often fall sick.Kena rain a bit also fall sick already what la
Take good care of yourself there,don't eat so much,rmb to sms me if u're bringing your phone along(I don't care!I will still look for u when I'm emo!!),be careful of your belongings,take care of your safety,don't wander around or you'll get lost,listen to your trainers,rmb me,have fun,enjoy yourself,I miss you!! lastly and the most important one is RMB TO GET FOR ME THOSE LENG ZHAI'S NUMBER AND EMAIL ADDRESS!!lol :) see you after 3months!! sayonara *waves*

2009

Ahh can't believe it's already 31st today and 2010 is only a few hours away!! Time flies,as they say.Happy New Year boys and girls!
I must say that 2009 isn't a joyful ride for me but since I can't change the past so I rather live with them :) Cherish the good moments and perish the bad ones,should we?Let's hope 2010 will be a better year for all of us and let's rock 2010!!
The past 12months..
1.School
-Finished SPM!Graduated!Unlike most of my friends,I feel very happy to leave school actually and of course,super grateful that I do not have to return to school again for the rest of my life!!Perhaps because I think I screwed up my high school life from the very beginning.Let's be frank.I do not enjoy studying in that school.I do not have many close friends in that school.I don't really like the people in my school.Not to brag or what but I always think that I deserve a better school and a better surrounding!Prefectorial board itself made me cried so many times this year.I hate to say this but gotta admit that I really can't get used to a life as a normal student after retiring this year.I have lost trust in many of them especially since that incident in form 4.I don't understand why my own prefect friends since form 1 betrayed me but I wanna thank those who are always there to back me up and fight for me whenever I face problems and difficulties.Sometimes I really get horrified and terrified by prefects' internal politics especially during the installation of the new board.Haha don't want to elaborate any longer as I'm no longer a part of them!!I just wanna say teacher pls don't look down on us.Us refers to those who joined Prefectorial Board since form 1.We all know in your eyes,you only think that those who became prefects in form 4 are good but just to let you know,we're all actually equally good!Leo club wise,we managed to carry out a few projects this year and earned quite a big sum of money for our club yay! :) sadly,there were some projects that couldnt be carried out as scheduled especially IR Day.Pn Lee ahhhh when are you actually going to approve our IR Day?I wish the upcoming board best of luck and I hope all of you bring will out the best in you to serve Leo Club :) ROAR X3! And eheh one of the good times is of course winning gold medal for my all time fav event-4X100m!Syahadah,Faezah,Soundari and myself have been running as a team for yellow house since form 1 and we all contribute 1gold medal to yellow house each year except last year something went wrong somewhere and we got third aha XD It's so fun running with you guys especially this year-we were leading all the way to the finishing line leaving other houses far far back behind lol..Whoa that feelings really feels so good man!!And we managed to break the record set in 2000 this year!!I'm so proud of us!!The adrenaline rush when the baton is being passed and is passed...just can't be desribed in words!Athletics rocks!! lol :)
SPM?No comment lol.Wish I studied harder-thats all about it.And oh cross country this year!!Kirubha finished 19th and I finished 20th I think lol.Aik 20th also I very happy already la can
:) cuz I know my stamina level lol..Mainly thats all about school life this year.And I feel bad for turning down Pn Azmah's invitation to join the debate team lol.Cikgu saya tak reti debate la ok..I enjoyed skipping school towards SPM exam.Also,I got very pissed off when we were stopped from entering the hall on Graduation Day cis!Whatever it is thanks teachers,school mates and classmates for shaping who I am today :) Lastly I must say that I hate the school clerks so much!They're so f-----g arrogant!!Hello pls bear in mind that you're only the school clerks.Pengetua Cemerlang?haha love it as much as my principal does lol.Eh my principal got AMW one ok dont play play lol..Bye COCHRANE!

2.Love life
-Gotta say that our relationship was at the lowest point beginning of this year but slowly things started to fall into place again.And heh let me tell you something shocking here,we actually broke up for a few hours before in September.Adrian asked for it actually.God knows how devastated I was at that time.Ken Yung I will nvr forget how you made me laughed on the phone and the courage you grant me.And I broke a guy's heart this year.And I learnt the hard way.And I dare not get any closer to anyone of the opposite sex anymore after that.Hurts eh :( So much tears involved.And I never want to experience that misery feelings of being trapped between two guys ever again.Sakitlah :S Howewer going through all these helps to make me a better and stronger person,hopefully a better gf too.They say,love is like crystal.You never know how to appreciate it till it's broken.Indeed true.Nevertheless thanks for the past.Short but taught us a lot of things right?Its a lie la if I say I have completely forgotten about it but let bygones be bygones and move on.This new year I wish my bf will love me more?Its not easy to maintain a almost 3years relationship but glad we're still together.This 17th Feb marks our third anniversary :) Btw whats the fuss over my ex Melvin in Facebook bahahahahahahaha ;) pity you la Melvin XD

3.Others
-I got my second piercing on my left ear!!!Managed to meet some new awesome ppl.Jen Hoe,Mun Fei,Edward,Chui Peng and recently,the bubbly and loud 14-year-old girl Samantha!!
Suddenly semangat ice-skating for Heaven's sake lol.Suddenly semangat Counter Strike for Heaven's sake lol.Suddenly semangat guitar for Heaven's sake lol!
To top it off,I rate 2009 2 out of 5 la

I hope 2010 will be filled with more sushi,karaoke,ice-skating!!,shoes and more awesome friends!!MUST take up guitar lesson followed by swimming lesson and lastly Japanese lesson lol.Have a great year ahead everyone!Hello 2010!

A very common question I got from my friends-What do you do there?(Penang)
Right listen up my daily routine is just something as simple as this :)

7am-wakes up and get ready to have breakfast with grandparents at the market
9am-online,facebook,blogging,tv,newspaper,UNO,daydream
2pm-lunch
4pm-afternoon nap
7pm-tv
8pm-dinner
9pm-facebook and blogging
12am-off to bed for another day
Yeah this is what I do here all the time-eat and sleep lol so lifeless eh?
No cinemas,no karaoke,no shopping centres nearby! Even there is one I can't drive yet aww :(

Things I wanna do right now
-watch Chipmunks!!The Chipettes!!
-makan sushi!!
-karaoke!! Jen Hoe!!
-get my Adidas pump!!
-get my driving license

Btw,sorry for dissapearing halfway chatting with you guys in MSN!Hang!!Lousy e-Buddy!!
Sorry Jen Hoe,Weng Fei,Ting Ting,and Mun Fei!!
Ok its already 10.30 now and I haven't take my bath yet so chao! byebye!
Ken Yung I'm so jealous of your resolutions.I mean they're very realistic unlike mine :( And I miss u la Chubby!!

I took so long to forget and let go and now that I'm revealing everything again.It's like a wound in my heart that finally heals after so long and now it's cut open again.I just want to say I have no regret knowing you and of course everything that took place between us.Like I said,you really left some unforgettable memories in me and they'll always be part of me wherever I go.Like you said,we both learnt a lot from what happened and you lost both in the end.Thanks for everything again.Maybe it's just a matter of time.You said you're traumatized and too tired of everything.I think the past really left a deep cut in your heart too,in fact a very deep,deep cut but it's time to move on.Life goes on.I don't want to see you living in hatred anymore.We're all normal human beings and we need love to live.Once again,thanks for everything!Don't torture yourself anymore,don't..And thanks to you,I learnt to appreciate the one who's always there for me more.
I don't want to learn the hard way anymore.I don't want my heart to be filled with my scars anymore.I found my other half and will tresure it like no one else.
Anyway I just want to thank these three awesome guys for keeping me accompanied through MSN and comforting me all the way(chatting with me is already of way of comforting btw) :)
Thank you Jen Hoe,Ting Ting and Kai Chi!
The end of another chapter in my life.Locked and sealed.Hope it will never be touched again.Good night world.